Aurora lightens up the skies as i watch them from my home

1. Gratitude 2. Visualize "Whatever the mind of mind can conceive, it can achieve." "Imagination is everything, it is the preview of life's coming attractions." "When you have inspired thought, you have trust it and to act on it." Instead of thinking of getting out of debt, think prosperity. When you focus on lack or scarcity, you will attract it. Instead of thinking you have to work hard for money, think money comes easily for me. Life is meant to be abundant in all areas. Inner joy, inner peace, inner freedom. We are creators of our universe, whatever we wish for in our lives we will manifest. Your wish is my command. From the universe. For relationships to work, we need to focus on appreciating on the other person, instead of complaining. I am grateful to Samantha Chong for being the first kiss lover, and the way she taught me to kiss. I am grateful to Elyssa Chua for teaching me to study instead of being in a relationship since...

Wow just saw jingmao. My old times friend from rivervale primary school at tampines. He is working in a bank right now doing well after graduating from an engineering degree from NTU. So successful. 

Addiction to smoking is ugly..  addiction to anything is ugly I know. But sometimes I just can't help it. 

Today I stopped a girl from pursuing me as a boyfriend. Cause of my mom. She says the girl is too old for me. I trust my mom has her reasons so I will listen to her as well... And the rest of the girls who chased after me these few years just want some quickie with me only. Not really ideals.

Now im starting work as a security officer on Monday. 24/2/2020. I wish it all the best for me. night shift and being paid $95 per night. I hope its a seenang job and I will be well paid for it. my friend recommended me a $110 job but I couldn't pass the interview..... maybe I just don't want it as well..... so far so good... my mom wants me to quit smoking today.... so I bought loads of packets of sweets  to show im quitting....

Woke up early in the morning. Like errrrrzzzz..... cant sleep!!!!! How? What to do? Should i go for a jog? Or what? Or should i go for breakfast before sleeping again..... so early excited for school already ......... whoa man ... time flies and im already 26 years old man ....... time fly again and im 30 years old already man......... hopefully ill be able to meet a person that i love that can accept me for who i am before i turn 35 if not i will not marry later. Or who knows maybe the fear of being controlled is so huge i wont get married at all ..... hahaha !!!!!!!

I hate to say this. Due to the years i spent being awake at night has caused me to be a person who have late night thoughts. My late night thoughts for tomorrow. Don't say im not living in the moment and nowness. Just that i cant help it but to think of all the exciting challenges that i will be facing tomorrow. Could it be more difficult than swimming 20 laps in the pool? I doubt so. I begin to think that my sheer determination to finish things off will help me to make it in the days of tomorrow and farthur days ahead of me as well. I hate to question the doubts that i have placed on myself but if i could i would just slay the dragon and off with my doubts - vanish like thin air into nothingness. I miss those nights i spent at ecp with you viewing stars and listening to songs like moon river where two drifters are off to see the world. Just like the lyrics said we would. How i miss those days. So carefree and not a single thought of worry at all and not a single care in this world...