Aurora lightens up the skies as i watch them from my home

Woke up early in the morning. Like errrrrzzzz..... cant sleep!!!!! How? What to do? Should i go for a jog? Or what? Or should i go for breakfast before sleeping again..... so early excited for school already ......... whoa man ... time flies and im already 26 years old man ....... time fly again and im 30 years old already man......... hopefully ill be able to meet a person that i love that can accept me for who i am before i turn 35 if not i will not marry later. Or who knows maybe the fear of being controlled is so huge i wont get married at all ..... hahaha !!!!!!!

I hate to say this. Due to the years i spent being awake at night has caused me to be a person who have late night thoughts. My late night thoughts for tomorrow. Don't say im not living in the moment and nowness. Just that i cant help it but to think of all the exciting challenges that i will be facing tomorrow. Could it be more difficult than swimming 20 laps in the pool? I doubt so. I begin to think that my sheer determination to finish things off will help me to make it in the days of tomorrow and farthur days ahead of me as well. I hate to question the doubts that i have placed on myself but if i could i would just slay the dragon and off with my doubts - vanish like thin air into nothingness. I miss those nights i spent at ecp with you viewing stars and listening to songs like moon river where two drifters are off to see the world. Just like the lyrics said we would. How i miss those days. So carefree and not a single thought of worry at all and not a single care in this world...

Tomorrow i am going to start up on my new job's training at work. I am going to face new challenges and face new fears that i have never felt before. Hopefully i will be strong enough to overcome all of them and turn out victorious for good. As the saying goes, 船到桥头自然直。Hopefully the same goes for my job. Yes yes yes you can do it!!!! Jiayou !!!!!! You can make it and you know you are the best. You are versatile in all fields of work and this is not going to bog you down. Goooooood luck!!!! Lots of love and hopefully everything will turn out wonderful for you!!!!! Hope to earn my first paycheck and treat myself to a good japanese meal. Hopefully i can tong until then!!!! If the people i see at work who are my peers are much younger than me, so i will be able to do much better than them because i got more experience and will do a better job than them. It's not a competition but hopefully i will turn out to be no. 1 as usual no matter what i do. 加油加油加油!!!!↖(^ω^)↗↖(^ω^)↗↖(^ω^)↗↖(^ω...